Kthulah’s Bjournal

I’m afraid that I might be developing former fatty syndrome even though I’m still kind of fat, and wasn’t exactly desperate when I was fat. It’s not the guys who ignored me before and pay attention now who bother me. It’s the ones who were, I guess, pretending to like me, who’ve abandonned me now that I’ve moved to a lower weight class.

As I’ve mentioned before, one good thing that has come out of my exploration of the PUA community over the last few years is that it’s a good window into the minds of assholes and wannabe assholes. Some sites attract a better grade of guys than others. Good or bad, I’ve learned alot that has helped me to relate better to my male counseling clients.

At some point in a writer’s life though, one has to step back and consider what all this means to me personally…what it means for my real life, and what it means for the characters I write about. How has this new insight changed me? Has it really changed me? Should it?